I feel tears forming in my eyes.
So, I’m counting to fifteen.
One. “You’re stupid.”
The truth runs wild,
like the rain to the sea.
Three. “You’re not famous enough.”
Four. “Idiot, that’s what you are.”
This voice inside,
has been eating at me.
Five. “Don’t eat, it’ll makes you fatter.”
Six. “He never loves you, okay?”
Trying to keep faith,
I’m lying through my teeth.
Seven. “The world’s so much darker.”
Eight. “You’re a disgusting girl.”
Trying to sedate my mind in its cage,
and numb what I see and hear.
Nine. “Daydreaming all day long, freak.”
Ten. “Does he even like you?”
This demon inside me,
doesn’t know the word ‘stop’.
Eleven. “Your parents are disappointed.”
Twelve. “Grab that razor.”
I’m screaming at me.
Thirteen. “Everyone hates you, freak.”
Fourteen. “You’re unwanted.”
I’m trying to keep faith,
picture his face staring up at me.
Fifteen. “You are not worth it.”
I open my eyes,
ready to face the reality again.
So, this post is about my depression. When I’m depressed and feeling anxious, usually I’m going to count to calm myself down, calm the voices inside my head.
Yeah. Let me know in the comments below, what do you do to calm yourself down when you’re feeling depressed.