68. Trust Issues and Socializing With New People.

So, for you guys who didn’t know, the school has started, and I got accepted in a public school, and it’s the best school (I think) in my area. I am in high school now and it’s like a challenge for me to be more easy-going and stuff.

As time went by, it’s the fourth day now. And I haven’t got new friends, at least I know some of their names. And the first thing that popped in my mind when I wrote this was, ‘I definitely have trust issues and lacks of socializing skill.”

First of all, if you meet me on the street, maybe some day I would bumped onto you on the street but we didn’t recognize each other, I am not that person who’s gonna say ‘hi’ first to you. I don’t like being in a crowd full of people, I don’t like to talk in front of public. I don’t like meeting new people and have to introduce myself over and over, because there’s nothing interesting about me.

‘But really I would rather be at home all by myself, not in this room with people who don’t even care about my well being.’

I’m more like an inrovert plus an antisocial, so if you don’t like that kind of person, please unfollow this blog, because that’s what I really am.

Second of all, I have trust issues. I can’t trust people easily. Like if we’re friends and you expect me to trust you, thsn you have to prove me something to make me sure that I can trust you with all my life. I kinda have a motto that I only have to trust few of my friends, because I have a pretty bad experience about trusting friends.

The problem is: you can’t trust everyone, and you can’t be friends with anyone you want.

Okay, life is hard, but that’s the truth. If you want to live through this, you have to survive. You have to do something different than you used to, you have to think outside-the-box. You have to be more than present-you. You have to be better than this in order to get everything exactly like you wanted to.

The point is, I don’t know what I have to do. I can’t socialize, and it’s like a nightmare if I have to meet new people. also, remembering the fact that there are billions of strangers in this world makes me snevous.

Okay, that’s all I have you today. You can leave anything in the comments below, I’m so tired and I feel like I could sleep for a week nonstop. 

Anyway, I joined a youth choir group, and I think I have to sing one song for the audition and stuff, so if you guys have a good song that I can sing to, let me know! It’s for this Saturday, so hurry!

Byee! πŸ˜‰

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21 thoughts on “68. Trust Issues and Socializing With New People.

  1. Me: V

    I have major trust issues too. Mine is mainly with telling my already existing friends when I am mad at them. I am lousy at fights and unfortunately nobody I know is so I feel like I’m gonna get shouted down πŸ™‚ Anyway, best of luck! I think you’re definitely gonna make new friends soon πŸ™‚

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  2. Song suggestion…anything by Justin Bieber-lol.
    Next- don’t say you’re not interesting because you are, you have different facets to your character which every individual will respond to differently. Why? Because you are interesting to them!
    Friends will come to you as well and they will be the type of person who will be there for you always…It’s completely natural to be nervous and stressed, but give yourself a break. Be comfortable with yourself, adopt the right “vibe”, and friendships will flow. Even if they don’t, then you have enough inner resources to deal with life smoothly and make acquaintances.
    Right, lecture from internet mum over, have a good sleep and good luck for your audition! I’ll be thinking of you and keeping my fingers crossed for you : ) xx

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    1. I still don’t have friends actually but I make acquaintances, and they’re pretty nice. Considering that I’m a new student, it’s pretty obvious that making new friends is kinda hard. Thank you for the advice! I love you so much, internet mum! xx.

      P.S.: I still don’t know what to sing tomorrow.

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      1. It’s tricky when a lot of friendships have already been established, but don’t forget people change all the time as they grow older. Personalities mature and young friendships no longer fit the criteria. Don’t worry, it will happen, just give yourself time, and space, to be your own self.
        Are you sure you don’t want to sing any Justin Bieber songs? No? Lol! Your musical judgement is bound to be better than mine any way!!
        Good luck for tomorrow, have a lovely weekend and love you lots too, internet daughter! : ) xx

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      2. I sang ‘Here’ by Alessia Cara, and they didn’t comment about the way I sang (which I thought was soo awful), but they accepted me and I think I’m soprano πŸ™‚ and thank you for asking, internet mum! πŸ’•

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  3. Free at last is a good song for your choir u could smash Jesus take the wheel too.
    You are interesting.
    It’s interesting how you manage to get such excellent results in school
    I left my choir but plan to join another one soon
    What is your voice type. ?
    Im bass
    True you can’t n shouldn’t trust everyone
    But I say trust those who love and raised you
    If you can’t trust them its a cold cruel world
    Mum and dad told me everyone is their own favorite topic so if you can squeeze out this phrase tell me about yourself u will probably only have to say yes no or maybe for the rest of your life while ur friends rattle off words at a mile a minute
    Music is also great at bringing people together so push urself to share ur natural singing talent with ur school mates even if ur just singing about cheese
    Ur voice will always be gold to someone n just the therapy they need to help heal their hurt
    A little doodle can also be a great friend magnetπŸ˜ƒ

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      1. The inverted commas on friends makes me laugh. Music has a way of bringing people together. I was mainly in my choir for singing therapy n food. Do you have a utube account. .? Divinely inspire urself 😁

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      2. I have a channel! I only posted one video, though, but I’m trying to find a perfect time to film another video haha. If you want the link, you can check my older post, I once posted about my first video πŸ™‚

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  4. lucindablogs

    Oh sweetie. I remember being so nervous when I started university in a new city and didn’t know anyone. It helps to remember that there are lots of other people there who don’t know anyone else either and they’re probably just as nervous as you. Keep smiling, say hello to people that you recognise and join in with social activities. It sounds like choir will be a great way to make friends. It will happen, you just need to give it some time.

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  5. omg i just saw this post, like after I posted my recent post. i have some problems with trust issues too, although it’s kind of different to you. Remember, you could always talk to me if you want to.

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  6. i just saw this right after i posted my recent post. I have problem with trust issues too, although it’s different compare to yours. Remember, i’ll always be here if you want to talk to me!

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  7. Hi love, hope your week is going well… Just to let you know I have nominated you for the MakeItUltra Award for quality, originality and presentation… obviously no pressure to accept, (there’s no time limit) but if you do, have a look at my blog tomorrow for the post and information. Love you lots internet daughter! πŸ™‚ xxx

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    1. Aw, thank you, internet mum! Anyway, I haven’t done the Sunshine Blogger Awards nomination because I have tons of homeworks 😦 Sorry for that, but I’ll do it as soon as possible πŸ’•πŸ’•

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