So, for you guys who didn’t know, the school has started, and I got accepted in a public school, and it’s the best school (I think) in my area. I am in high school now and it’s like a challenge for me to be more easy-going and stuff.
As time went by, it’s the fourth day now. And I haven’t got new friends, at least I know some of their names. And the first thing that popped in my mind when I wrote this was, ‘I definitely have trust issues and lacks of socializing skill.”
First of all, if you meet me on the street, maybe some day I would bumped onto you on the street but we didn’t recognize each other, I am not that person who’s gonna say ‘hi’ first to you. I don’t like being in a crowd full of people, I don’t like to talk in front of public. I don’t like meeting new people and have to introduce myself over and over, because there’s nothing interesting about me.
‘But really I would rather be at home all by myself, not in this room with people who don’t even care about my well being.’
I’m more like an inrovert plus an antisocial, so if you don’t like that kind of person, please unfollow this blog, because that’s what I really am.
Second of all, I have trust issues. I can’t trust people easily. Like if we’re friends and you expect me to trust you, thsn you have to prove me something to make me sure that I can trust you with all my life. I kinda have a motto that I only have to trust few of my friends, because I have a pretty bad experience about trusting friends.
The problem is: you can’t trust everyone, and you can’t be friends with anyone you want.
Okay, life is hard, but that’s the truth. If you want to live through this, you have to survive. You have to do something different than you used to, you have to think outside-the-box. You have to be more than present-you. You have to be better than this in order to get everything exactly like you wanted to.
The point is, I don’t know what I have to do. I can’t socialize, and it’s like a nightmare if I have to meet new people. also, remembering the fact that there are billions of strangers in this world makes me snevous.
Okay, that’s all I have you today. You can leave anything in the comments below, I’m so tired and I feel like I could sleep for a week nonstop.
Anyway, I joined a youth choir group, and I think I have to sing one song for the audition and stuff, so if you guys have a good song that I can sing to, let me know! It’s for this Saturday, so hurry!