I am confused.
I feel like I haven’t interacted with you guys for a week (maybe). I have a lot of things in my mind right now, my life is so busy at the moment. And, I feel lonely.
Sometimes I just want a day-off from school, and just sit in my room, relaxing for a while, and just not think about anything. Because I realize that life is more complicated than I thought. Life is a bit cruel (sometimes), and life can be nice. I don’t know, I am confused.
I am confused, and snervous (scared and nervous) about school, about my ‘socializing’ skill, about my trust issues, about my depression and anxiety, about what would I become in the future. Like, will I make it? Will I become a successful person, or a poor person? The thought of that really scares me.
Another thing that’s bugging my mind is about my sexuality, which is kinda an awkward topic to talk about. LGBTQ+ is like an open community now, but of course there are people who still can’t accept it. And if you’re wondering, I still don’t know if I’m straight or not. I just feel like I’m a little bit different from the others. And if I’m not straight (which is maybe), what would my parents said about it? How am I supposed to come out to them if they’re homophobic? Will they hate me? Does God hate me? Will my friends hate me too?
Things are complicated.
Anyway, that’s all I want to talk about today. If you’re reading this, thank you. I appreciate you. Sometimes I’m kinda pissed if I write something passionately and no one reads it. So, thank you again.
I’m planning on changing this blog’s ‘daily-but-is-messed-up-now’ post into weekly post, because obviously I can’t really write daily now except if I write a few drafts then I post it on different days. But, no. It’s weekly post now, and I’ll write every Friday. I don’t know, I love Fridays. Maybe it’s because I get home earlier on Fridays rather than usual days.
Okay. See you on the next #LimitlessFriday!